Apperception

It is a terrible thing to discover that you are, in fact, the villain in your own story.

I began the day by having entirely too much champagne in my mimosa at the family breakfast. Handling any probing and condemnatory comments was much easier this way. Verbal sewage then began to spew from my lips in the car on the way to my husbands' race in Salem. I had nothing positive to say, but didn't I "deserve" to say it?? Passing a homeless man on the street I simmered in the “disappointment” that the man I married happened to be looking at the new bike store just opened on the opposite side of the street. He would be so hard-of-heart -- not even stopping to give the man our spare change. A visit to the grocery store left us arguing. I needed a number of items he questioned incessantly. Rolling my eyes at our back door, I impatiently tapped my foot. “How hard is it to find the right key?!” Vehemently, the words flow off my tongue. That evening I glare at the football game clouding the TV screen when we hadn’t yet reviewed our Home Group Bible Study. 

“How am I supposed to 'submit', Lord? Do you SEE what I have to put up with??!”

And He gently responds, “Do you?”